I find my own determination a lil dodgy. My temptation for alcohol has not faded yet and it’s time to get my ass back to study. Don’t understand why I just love being outside and my room is like a hotel room, I’m only home for sleep and shower.
I hardly communicate with my new housemate, and sometimes I choose just to walk past without saying a word. I know it’s impolite but what should I say? I can’t talk , I can only crap :p
Time flies. It’s already my week …. ( okay , I’m not aware of the uni weeks also . damn! ) After 9th of March , I promise , I should really put my ass on the chair in front of the study table and do revision.
biibuu ♥
February 22, 2011
February 08, 2011
Where am I ?
My first “second home” is the Confucius block of Inti’s hostel on September 2008. That’s where I had my own living space besides Seremban. I started to make more friends from different places, Pakistanis, Nigerians, people from China and all over Malaysia. I learned to become independent, going to classes everyday and punctually, do assignments and hand up on time, study for test and do my best in the exams.
After that semester, I moved to Desa Palma and that’s my second “second home” which I’m still staying till now. I love being tidy, and I clean my room like every 2 – 3 days. Still remember the second week, when I was supposed to go to hang out with friends at Alamanda but end up hitting the club, with just singlet, shorts and sandals but it was a fun night as well. Weeks after, I joined the DAC club and at the gathering night, I met a special someone who became my boyfriend within a month. Whose love stories are not sweet initially? We spent most of our days and nights together. Being in love, kiss , hugs , intimacies, arguments , get jealous over lil things, chatted for hours when we’re about to sleep. Love just has it ups and downs. Unfortunately, our love is not strong enough and it leads to break up a year after. Betrayals are painful, but he’s forgiven because of love but things did not go well. Things become complicated and torture both of us. That’s when I grew up. Thanks to him.
But sometimes, I’m just being too stubborn. Determinations aren’t strong enough, end up hurting my own feelings. Anyhow, I’m still an optimist, knew myself can get over the pain in awhile. I trust myself. Whatever that I miss about is him is just because I used to love him a lot and for whatever that we’ve done in the past. Those memories are somehow beautiful and ignore the ugly ppart.
After he left, I joined Social Board. I get to know even more friends. Most of them are younger than I do, but they’re just too jovial and keep me distracted from being sad for him leaving. We work together as a team and do the best for O’Nite and go crazy and get high in clubs.
I used to hate alcohol and fags but they’ve become part of my obsession now. I don’t blame others for what I am today but they’ve become one of the socialize tools but it doesn’t mean that I’m using them to impress someone to get me fit in their group but it’s just better. I’ve tried to drink lesser so that I can smoke lesser but there’s always temptation. I’m just giving my excuses perhaps but if there’s ever another special someone who walk into my life and wanted me to give up fagging, I will for his sake :p
I’m still looking for the old me, back in September 2008. Where am I ?
biibuu ♥
After that semester, I moved to Desa Palma and that’s my second “second home” which I’m still staying till now. I love being tidy, and I clean my room like every 2 – 3 days. Still remember the second week, when I was supposed to go to hang out with friends at Alamanda but end up hitting the club, with just singlet, shorts and sandals but it was a fun night as well. Weeks after, I joined the DAC club and at the gathering night, I met a special someone who became my boyfriend within a month. Whose love stories are not sweet initially? We spent most of our days and nights together. Being in love, kiss , hugs , intimacies, arguments , get jealous over lil things, chatted for hours when we’re about to sleep. Love just has it ups and downs. Unfortunately, our love is not strong enough and it leads to break up a year after. Betrayals are painful, but he’s forgiven because of love but things did not go well. Things become complicated and torture both of us. That’s when I grew up. Thanks to him.
But sometimes, I’m just being too stubborn. Determinations aren’t strong enough, end up hurting my own feelings. Anyhow, I’m still an optimist, knew myself can get over the pain in awhile. I trust myself. Whatever that I miss about is him is just because I used to love him a lot and for whatever that we’ve done in the past. Those memories are somehow beautiful and ignore the ugly ppart.
After he left, I joined Social Board. I get to know even more friends. Most of them are younger than I do, but they’re just too jovial and keep me distracted from being sad for him leaving. We work together as a team and do the best for O’Nite and go crazy and get high in clubs.
I used to hate alcohol and fags but they’ve become part of my obsession now. I don’t blame others for what I am today but they’ve become one of the socialize tools but it doesn’t mean that I’m using them to impress someone to get me fit in their group but it’s just better. I’ve tried to drink lesser so that I can smoke lesser but there’s always temptation. I’m just giving my excuses perhaps but if there’s ever another special someone who walk into my life and wanted me to give up fagging, I will for his sake :p
I’m still looking for the old me, back in September 2008. Where am I ?
biibuu ♥
February 02, 2011
It's Chinese New Year Eve :)
Guess what , I don't even realize that today is CNY eve until mum reminds me yesterday . Every family will be busy doing spring cleaning which I hate the most because of my sensitive nose ! It'll start sneezing within half an hour of cleaning and tortures me the rest of the day and because of this, I can't be bothered to remember when CNY falls .
That was crap :p It's because of the ambiance. As years gone by, CNY has become one of the normal days or another weekends perhaps ? In those days, everyone will be going back early to gather and help with house chores but now ? They'll be only back on CNY eve, leaving the folks to clean the house waiting for them to come back , the worst of all , they only come back after CNY . I even have friends who's working on the first two days of CNY . How pathetic .
What I care bout the most of CNY is gatherings. No matter it's with friends or family, I still love them. I just love being around with someone I know , can talk to and of course can bull with. I'm looking forward for all this by tonight :)
biibuu ♥
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