I'm bruising.

I'm hurt not because we've broke up but I'm hurt because we know we love each other but we aren't together. I don't really hope it'll ended up like this but if .. there's no longer space for me in you. I hope you'll let me know.I want the truth no matter how awful it is.

I don't know what do you actually want but I've tell you what I want. I wanted to believe what you said is true and I did believe it but you make me doubtful because you can't make any decisions. I just hope you are doing it right.

Ask your heart. I let go my dignity to beg you to do so , i begged you but you tend to take things for granted. Never wanted to appreciate anything. Or maybe for you, it's not to appreciate. It's just nothing.

I don't want myself to be that pessimistic.I've lost my control and mood. All I did was just crying alone in the room, doesn't wanna go anywhere. Deleting the pictures of you and I in my mobile is tearing my heart into pieces.

I don't know how long it'll take to heal but I really can't help myself at this moment.

biibuu ♥

It rolls from my eyes externally

and it's bleeding internally ...

I get blessings but I did not cherished it. What I've done contradicts with what I want things to be. I became a hypocrite to myself or maybe to him as well.

I don't know if this is unfair or good for him .. I thought of being a narcissist but does it hurts ? Usually don't but what I'm doing .. YES .

SHIT HAPPENS and it's not as easy as flushing them down into the toilet.

Time takes it all .. and heals it.

biibuu ♥