25th June o9 - Four months ...

Yesterday was Wednesday, the day when usually O night is held. I didn't even realize the last O night i attended was 17 weeks ago and that's the day where the story of baby and i begins ;) . Time flies so rapidly and counting back the days, baby and i have been together for 4 months. Compared to those who have been together for years, i'm definitely incomparable with you guys but frankly, i've never imagine we can be together for that long. It's not because i don't love baby but we're just too hyper. We can be pretty loving but we can be also the other way round cause neither of us has a really good temper. Last but not least, SMELLY i love you ;D xoxo ~

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22nd June o9

Wanted to trust but still doubting so i still choose to clarify if things did happen. In the end, what i got was 2 different things. Although for some people, this two different things don't really mean anything but somehow why there are two different versions ? Did i actually suspect too much ? Hopefully, I do but somehow things is not that right.

I remember mentioning trust is an important element in my previous blog. Yes, it's definitely yes. No doubt at all but did most of them practice it? They did as well but it differs in terms of percentages - in other word, how much do they trust .

I realize Ric was so right. Never control or maybe over control your lovers. They're just your lover and they might not be your future wife or husband so why do so ? Ain't i being so silly to control him as i knew he actually don't like to being control and in the end, if i caught him doing things that i actually dislike and in the end who's the one who got hurt ? Answer : ownself.

I always do things in a way that is not that matured because i don't think logically. I've tried before but in the end, I've all sorts of nonsense in my mind. To be frank, I'm always stubborn but i will try to be optimistic with whatever he like to do and never control . All the while, he doesn't really belongs to me. He belongs to himself

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18th June o9

My doinky buubuu actually promised me not to meet Mr.A when he's back to his hometown but today ... he said Mr.A did asked him out and he actually said next week which means the answer is more or less = YES . Baby, you're a damn bad babi . I HATE YOU. I don't need to tell you again why i dislike but you should know I don't trust Mr.A .. AT ALL !! So if you're going out with him, i won't know who he'll bring along to lim teh with you and somehow you guys might not be only drinking " TEH " but BEER. I'm not restricting you from alcohol but .. you know it ! Maybe i'm too much for not letting you out with your so called " friend " but if you insist, i won't stop you but one thing for sure, I'll get MAD !

Another thing to be upset of is i started to realize that this friend of mine whom once said that she don't really like people to boast around started to have this kind of attitude or should i say she have this in her but i've never realize. As a friend, i knew i should not mind too much but i just have this kind of dislike.

Maybe i'm not that good to comment so much so all i can do is express here and everything's relieved (n_n)~* Cheers ... !


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15th June o9

Today is the 5th day since baby left Nilai for home and counting down .. 13 days to go (and it's soooooooooooooo fcking long ) Feel super duper uneased and miss him so terribly .. ! Stupid baby .. ishhhhhhhhhhhhh ! Hate you this dong dong lahhh ... Who ask you to stay so far .. !!??!! Come back faster nahhhhhhhhh :'(

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