New Year Resolution ? FAILED !

It's the end of the first month of 2011 and there will be New Year resolutions hence should be working on it already but me …?
I’m absolutely a VAINPOT, no efforts put so I failed totally! hahahaha

I’ve mentioned the first failure in the previous post and now the second one in this post. After months being Singapore, besides gaining experience and enjoyment, another thing that I’ve gained is weight. Resolution was to lose them and get my figure back but somehow, I ddddiiiiiiiiiidddddddddd NOT do anything bout it. I spent no time exercising besides hiking for the camp that I’ve attended last week. I tried eating lesser and even skip my dinner, it works a lil because I see a lil bit of reduction BUT … ( hahaha , BUTS are despicable ) one night of alcohol ruins all !

Blame myself for the new obsession now. Beer doesn’t taste any better but I enjoyed drinking. Weird huh? However, I don’t blame myself for all … ! When you have a bunch of cuckoo friends, you’re busted. What they do ? Pay for your drinks and you drink as much as you can, and these rich fellas, just get pleasure from seeing people drunk. wth. The worst, they bring you to makan, you’re allowed to order whatever you wanna eat but in one condition, you’ve to finish it, INCLUDING THOSE THAT THEY ORDER. This is WTF. Luckily, it’s only for once in awhile not always or else, I’ll die of stuffing !

New Year Resolutions are now postponed to Chinese New Year Resolutions. I can stll fit in all my S size top so I just need to lose a lil more, just a lil more can do. I can do it (hopefully...) ! (:


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New Sem :)

It’s the second week of the new semester but it’s just the first week of class for me. Another New Year resolution of mine should be present to class more often, however, I skipped another class again the second day of class. As mentioned before, lecturers with dreadful English somehow turned me off. It’s pretty hard for them to send us their idea, and worst of all, they sometimes don’t really know what are they teaching and they to give us the wrong information! It just happened on the first day me attending E-Commerce. wtf

I really tried being positive so lecturers, please be good and I’ll be the same to you.

* fingers crossed *

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There's a saying

If the relationship doesn't make you a better person, then you are with the wrong one.

Then what if that person makes you better but he got worst ?

And what if that person makes you a better person but he has to leave ?

Or what if that potential someone will be the one who makes you better but he's never with you ?


What hurts the most ?


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Can't wait to go back to the campus !

After being in Seremban for a short while , I just feel like heading back to Nilai.

I wanna go back to have fun with the SBs , I miss parties and all the craps there and hopefully they'll make me think of nothing besides O'Nite and my studies .

* fingers crossed *

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MERRY XMAS !

New Year is just a week to go but I had no new resolutions yet. Such a loser :/

Has been a spendthrift lately, should really ditch off the bad habit of mine as a shopaholic and concentrate on my studies or else, I’ll always be poor and still have some debts to settle :S

Here comes the end of internship, just a week to go and I'm back to the life as a student. Feel a lil reluctant to leave NC but i have to. I knew I'll be missing Tiff, Cheryl, Russell and Gilda a lot :'( We’ve not been together for a long time but we do spend lots of time together, crapping, laughing out loud, gossiping. Oh shit , I’m missing their company already :’( so the deal was , I’ll be back to Singapore whenever I’ve breaks ! Still in a dilemma whether to go back on before 3rd or after just to meet Gilda before I leave.

However, wish 2011 will be better !

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My tt

Just a random one .

I'm lovin' this :)

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Counting down for my cruise trip :D

I’m looking forward for my cruise trip which is this coming Sunday(12th) . It’s gonna be fun. I love the sun on the cruise and I’ve predicted, I’ll have my most therapeutic retail therapy there ! How could I miss it :D :D :D

I'll be traveling on Virgo this time :)

Let’s see how my itinerary goes,
I’ll be leaving Singapore on Sunday evening , reaching Penang at 2pm on Monday and depart again at 9pm heading towards Phuket Island and reaching there approximately at 8.30am in the morning the next day until 6pm. I must make sure to get my ass ready to utilize my time in Phuket to the max for shopping, eating and oh .. maybe massage or even ELEPHANT RIDES !

Goddddd , the more I think of it , the more I’m hoping this Sunday to come faster !


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Horoscopes

Do you believe in them ? I do .

Look at the people around you and try to observe them. You’ll see people with the same horoscopes behave and think more or less the same.

I err again, with the same mistake. It happens to be the people with the same horoscope. Blame me for being selfish but I knew things will be complicated because we know how we felt. Both of us had confronted it but we did not conclude it with a clear and strong borderline for us. I knew we are wrong but something will happen sooner or later and left us feeling guilty.

Please strengthen my willpower !

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After a short hiatus

And here I am to blog again …

There’s no much updates as I’ve been doing the same things like the old previous days, things been done repetitively in workplace, even back in hometown , hanging out with the same bunch of people whenever and wherever doing whatever.

Ever since I’ve started working, I realized I begin to control my emotions and my speech. I’ve became so cool to good news and bad news, which I’m not sure if it’s good or bad. I don’t know why the heck I’ve become like this but shit happens and it’s not as easy as flushing down into the toilet.

People will behave strangely and some things will go unpredictably wrong or right and sometimes, it doesn’t make sense – AT ALL, TOTALLY ! If I ever choose to spend time trying to find out and work it out, I guess I’ll drive myself crazy. On those days, people always advise us to not be hesitate to ask questions if you don’t understand but to me, not everything is beyond your understanding so much better to accept that we don’t need to know every tiny bits of the stuff and let it go at that rather than let those clutters bothering us ! How simple is that .

What’s in my mind always? Definitely my retail therapy that cheer me up 24/7 oh ya .. and also FOOD ! As mention in the earlier post that one thing that I’m absolutely negative about is my cravings. It doesn’t has a limit and that what makes me be ill with and at the same time ENJOY when I got them.

After mum left, I went to Vivo to get a new lingerie as I really need a new one in nude colour. I really think of getting it and left right away but my determinations ain’t strong enough and I wander around for more and of course I don’t go back only with my lingerie :p

There’s another month left till I’m back for good .. ermmm .. but not that good. Somehow, I’m missing my uni days already, wish to get back asap to meet the goodies and hang out together.

Heading home tomorrow ! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D


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Girls' talk

Met Pei Pei for dinner after knocking off last Friday, it’s been a month since I last met her around as we don’t find a well-suited time to meet. Chatted for the whole meeting session which includes dinner and shopping. Guess what .. ? It was therapeutic ! For what and what .. of course eating , shopping and girls talk are the best remedy to release stress !

But don’t really get to spend a lot or else, I think I’ll starve to death by 10th next month before I get my salary. I’ve got a lil tight on my allowance this month as I don’t have any extras but hopefully, I can cope with it. Next month is gonna be a tough month too as I planned to lengthen my stay for my intern period for another week which means I’ll be back for good ( just for a year ) next year and come back right after I graduate :)

I’ve my planned my stay here , all I want is earn more money to increase my spending power to indulge my personality as a spendthrift :p hahahahahah .. I know it’s a pretty wrong plan but this is who I am. Nothing can really thwart me from loving shopping and you know what, sometimes I really got berserk when I can’t do that.


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After rehab for 2 months ..

I finally had some damaging stuff back into my tummy again. Spent Friday night with the besties and a so called “ bro “ at Starbucks and later on to Shahrich’s new pub, Brugge. Well, the outlook and the ambience of the pub is not bad actually but the people who visited … uhmmm .. all I can say is .. this is Seremban. Tried consoling a lil girl who refrains to talk face to face with her ex-boyfriend that somehow makes our group a lil estranged, find her kinda naïve but I’ve been there once at her age but I knew this lil girl will act differently as time passes. We all know (:

But for us, the slightly grow up kids – I’m not sure if he knows what I want, but I knew what both of us want in common, but more , he don’t really know what I want because neither do I knew exactly what my feel denotes. Sometimes, it’s the mindset that tricks us. You’ve actually don’t love that person as much you used to do but just because you thought you were so you still have him in your mind and you didn’t even get to realized that there’s someone by your side when you’re upset but somehow this someone maybe not be the right person too. Guess we shall not complicate stuffs as we’re still too good to be friends, I would love to have you around always.

Before club, accompany the buddies to a new café at Kota Damansara. The place has a not-bad ambience too with not-bad food and …. the part time singer of the café there is so damn cute ! Well, was too passionate listening to his songs until I didn’t realized that I had to capture some pics ! Went clubbing right after and yours truly was ffk-ed at first but in the end, plans still goes on but only with different people and different place. Was not in the mood at first but after a few drinks, here comes the “we have to move it , move it ! “After 2 months not stepping in the club, I got totally wasted that night once I stop dancing and slept throughout the night , puked , and continue sleeping until I reach home but still a fun night though. After that night, guess it’s time to rehab again.

Toodles !

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I just wanna be treated normally

Here comes the ninth week of internship :D

Everything has been going smoothly, colleagues are nice, working atmosphere is good and supervisors and bosses are friendly. The best thing of all, the finance people loves to eat so we’ve a corner that looks like provision shop that full with food and snacks which is FOC 

Although not many people from other departments knew who I was but my supervisor knows. I just wished I’ll be treated equally. During my intern, I’m doing what should I do, so I don’t need any special break. I would prefer him to voice out my mistakes. After all, the more he pinpoint my mistakes, then the more I realized and the less likely that I’ll come up with the new ones ;)

Thank you anyway ! Feel so grateful ...


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On my birthday ..

Everybody asked me on my birthday " How are you going to celebrate tonight ? " , " So what's the plan tonight ? " , Where are you heading for big feast ? "

But my answer is just " HOME " and people think it’s a lil impractical. Well , it’s no biggies kay … and I don’t think it’s pathetic to celebrate it at home. Birthday has been nothing to me since last few years but somehow, in my perception, the best birthday is when you can celebrate with someone who is really close to you. For few years consecutively, mum has not celebrated my birthday with me because she’d been traveling on my birthday but this year, I’m the one who’s not around but still I received her greetings and also from most of my friends through facebook , texts and calls. I can feel the warmth :D

Sometimes, memories are good. I recalled my birthday last year, it was indeed a good birthday for me and I’ve stored it as one of the best moments in my life but we can’t turn back time and shall not look backward. Those are memories, something for you to keep in mind but not to be sad when thinking of :)

This year’s birthday is great too ! I’ve a bunch of colleagues trying to surprise me but I’m smart enough to know it’s a surprise and also two girlfriends celebrated for me at home. I don’t really fancy sweet stuffs but I saw the effort. Thanks for the truffles and raspberry cake. Thanks peeps for making it happen.

I’ve make a wish but not revealing it. Call me a superstitious freak but I still believe when wishes are revealed, it will somehow do not come true ;9


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Something that I've missed

I realized I like things to be done fast, maybe because I prefer efficiency. I used to rush my work as if it’s meeting it’s deadline, used to walk very fast, even if I’m not in a rush but this morning, as I went out after the rain stops, the ground is so wet that I can’t get to move fast, I walk slowly and I realized the sky is so blue and I guess this is what I missed every morning. It’s so refreshing walking all the way to the MRT and I heart the morning. If the sky allows me, guess I’ll be going to jog with the girls on weekends as it’s not hazy anymore.

As usual, I’ve been dealing with lotsa CAFs, BAs and AFs and I spend every hour in the office working and it actually fill up my day although sometimes it tires me at the end of the day, I still feel satisfy. I’ve somehow forgotten until my colleague reminds me that it’s my birthday tomorrow. Well well .. it’s my twenty-second tomorrow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

I’m going to revised my wishlist again ;)


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I was a lil slow

Ever wonder how's the feeling of being assaulted eespecially by someone who used to be very close to you? To me, it’s like fcking mixed up but one thing that I force myself to keep in mind is I've to be impartial with whatever that person says is true or bogus. Just go ahead judge whatever shits you want.

I’m being myself, looking ahead, trying to notice my dreadful traits and ditch them. I’ve see a short path of my way and still looking for a better way. Regardless of what life throws on my way, a positive outlook on life will get definitely gets me further.

I’ve really moved on because I can’t be staying there, yearning for something that is impracticable to happen. I hate disappointments and you do it the best but thanks anyway.

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I've received my pay !

It was like ... FINALLY ... phewwww !

Although it's just a few hundred dollars but that's what I earned on my own ... but fortunately still get some sponsor from someone. Thanks for fulfilling my needs and the good food that you’ve spent me :D Wondering how could I survive without those extras?

Has been very busy lately. My life now is about BA, CAF and WO. Although they're sort of troublesome, but I've fall in love doing it. At least, I’ve something to do to keep me from doing nothing or else I’ll be playing Sudoku or reading that somehow makes me sleepy.

I miss doing Yoga but I can’t make it because classes here clashes with my working time. Because of having too many good food, I’ve really put on kilos. It’s time to reduce but but but but I'll be getting another treat of Japanese buffet soon ... ahhhhhh … fck the diet plan , let’s eat :D

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UNDERSTANDING MEN !

After reading this, you would have realized, we are all the same, it's just that man always wanna act strong and don't admit that they're just like woman :D


1. Men have needs just like you do
Women are often considered the needier sex, but guys are have their emotional needs, too, according to Huemer and Winas. They may not readily admit it, but "men need respect, praise, interest in what they do, support, encouragement, collaboration, understanding, love, time alone, etc., etc."

2. Men need respect
Find a woman who disrepects her guy, and you'll find a man who's halfway out the door. "A man is going to find respect somewhere," say Huemer and Winas. "If she doesn't give it to him, then he is going to find it someplace else."

3. Men need praise
What's the best way to get a man to please you, whether around the house or in bed? Give his self-esteem a boost. "Men constantly need to be reminded about how great they are," say Huemer and Winas. "If you ask him to do the dishes and he doesn't do them perfectly then appreciate the fact that he actually did them, even if it is not to your exact specifications. Nagging him about how inefficient he is and how you would have done a much better job is not in your best interest."

4. Men need you to be interested in what they do
Men want to be around women who care about what they love (his job, his hobby, whatever). "You don't have to live and breathe his interests," say Huemer and Winas, "but you should understand them enough to comment." For instance, ask about his day at the office when he gets home, show your excitement for his achievements at work. If he's had a stressful day, hear him out -- you don't even have to give advice. Most of the time, he just needs a listening ear.

5. Men need support and encouragement
"If you support him, he will support you," say Huemer and Winas. When he asks you do help, do the things you can to support him. "If you encourage him with his goals and dreams, he will be a better man for it."
6. Men need collaboration
In other words, men don't want to be told what to do or how to do it. "The best thing that you can do is manipulate him into thinking that he came up with the idea," say Huemer and Winas. He likes a relationship where you work together as a team, not a relationship where you're wearing the pants.

7. Men need understanding
Men may seem to be from Mars sometimes, but they really want to be understood. "When he takes the time to actually talk to you, don't blow it off or ignore it, just listen," say Huemer and Winas. Great communication between couples is key to connecting on a deeper, stronger level.

8. Men need love (and yes, that does include sex)
We all know sex is important to a man, but "love is not just sex," say Huemer and Winas. "Love is a look, a touch, a kiss, and stroking his ego." When you are attentive to his needs, he will be more willing to pay attention to yours.

9. Men need time alone
He needs a chance to explore a hobby, hang with the guys and unwind. "Allow and encourage him to do what he does to recharge" suggest Huemer and Winas. "If you do this, the time you spend with him will be even better." Of course, if time alone includes an addiction to porn, fantasy football and video games, you may want to reconsider your choice of man.

10. Men need your attention
You may think they're not very observant, but men pay attention to how their women address their needs, because as mentioned in the first point: Men are needy.

I don't enjoy working life .

It's the forth week already! Time flies just like the speed of light. Counting down, 12 more weeks left for my intern. I’m longing for that very day to arrive. Life here is hectic and crazy ! As I’ve mentioned in my earlier blogs, I’ve to wake up early in the morning to prepare and head to work. I’ve adapted but I’m just too tired. I’ve a good supervisor but maybe he’s too smart, I’m a lil stressed for being a slow learner and I realized I’m actually not prepared for working life and so I don’t enjoy it at all !

Working just for a few weeks has eventually altered my perception. I realized that money and love don’t always come together. Why ? Because it’s hard for you to love someone without money but sometimes you find yourself don’t really love that person but it’s the money that you love ?

From what I read in most of the magazines here, girls here are smart asses. FREAKING SMART ! Most of the working ladies who dressed smartly are usually seen around shopping alone. Reasons ? They don’t have a boyfriend to shop with because they only go for guys who are earns more than them, more educated than them and preferably, owns a car.

How I wish I could learn to be like them … love money more than a person !

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Disputed ? Kinda .

This blog may sounds a lil controversial but I just feel a lil exasperated but not agitated though.

Maybe some people like to share but some people who ironically wanted to share but in fact, they want to brag off perhaps - to seek attention.

So as to defeat this kind of people, all you need is be who they are. Theoretically, when they brag, you brag too but of course something practical or maybe argue back with something that makes sense. I’ve bump into some of these people.

1. A friend of my mum used to brag about how rich he was has just go through a divorce 2 – 3 years back and he hardly does shopping with her teenage daughter. When he came to my aunt’s place for breakfast one morning, he mentioned bout bringing her for groceries shopping and spent more than RM300 and just a shampoo for her daughter itself is RM30. He kept mentioning bout it as if he wanted to discipline her daughter not to spend much but because of love and affection and also of his richness, he said let me do the teachings. I replied “ Sorry, I can’t help. My shampoo costs me more than RM100“ and that shuts him up right away.

2. As you guys know, guys hardly shop but girls usually and of course we knew where to get the great deals. This fella knew the cheapest place to bring his gf is that famous spot so he brought her there. When he comes back and let us know that he’ve spent around 700-800bucks on that particular day at the plaza with his gf plus meals and he’s like so proud of spending more than 1k in a few days time. When I can’t stand any longer bout his bragging, all I said was “ OWHHHHH .. still ok lah .. I can spend 3k plus in ONE DAY – shopping ALONE but bought some stuff for my ex but you know, girls love to shop. “ He just opened his eyes widely, don’t know what to say and few moments later he said “ Yeah, that’s true and you’re rich. “ Sorry bahhh , didn’t mean to LC him but the way he boast make me feel so irritated.

3. This friend who used to say that he hardly got drunk and girls can be a pretty lousy drinker but this kind of statement are usually not proved theoretically but practically. When he heard from somewhere that I’m a heavy drinker ( WHICH I’M NOT !) and wanted to challenge me but of course I knew I’m not one so I didn’t really accept his brainless challenge. There’s one night that we had a drinking session in the club. He came to me and asked me to bottom’s up for like few glasses of kao kao liquor but after an hour, he’ve gone missing and someone found him sitting at the corner, asleep. Don’t get drunk ? In his dreams perhaps … all I did was tease him the next time I saw him. DUMB ASS.

Owhhh .. am I complaining too much in this blog ? I guess yes .. heh .. People … WAKE UP ! Brag bout something that's true !

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Another week in Singapore

Hey ... it's my second week here already !

Have make myself adapted to this new environment.. In fact, it's not that bad but not as ideal as i thought as well.

Not sure if I really lead a healthy life, bedtime before 12am, sometimes 11pm and get up early in the morning at 6.30am to get ready to work. It’s been 2 week since I last had alcohol and ciggies and I’m sure my body has clean-up all this detrimental stuffs.

I was dispensed to a few departments in the company. My latest position was receptionist to replace Tiffany who’s on leave for a week. Pretty nervous for the first time because there are lots of people that I don’t really know as I’ve to put them through people who call in as well as attending to the guest’s needs.

Wondering is it right for them to put me in the Finance department as I’m not that interested in working with numbers but I can’t make any decision to which I shall place though …
Still bracing myself for the third week of internship.

TOODLES ! :)

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