Almost done (n_n)~*

So glad to see my asses coming to the end ... phew .. They're sort of torturing .. I'm left with Ethics individual ass and Moral group's ass and I'm all done :)

But when there's the end of something, it's actually a beginning for something else .. That's my final . I shall catch up with my studies by next week once i finalize my last ass.

biibuu ♥

Assignments

Of all shits, you're the most arduous , troublesome , tiresome and tedious. Why must all students go through all this ? God, I'm running out of time and I need 48 hours a day ! Can anyone grant this wish for me ... for only a week perhaps ?

Bless me !

biibuu ♥

Growing up

As we're growing up, we're exposed to more and more stuffs and things that would be awkward when we were young. The perception towards them just changed according to our age.

It's just like .. when i was a kid, i learn that kids should be obedient and never tell lies but parents did that to us ! When I'm in primary school, I used to be a Top 5 student and think that I'll be better in future but in the end, I end up being the top 5 from the back in the second class of my Form 1. What a shame :p

Before i step in college, my form 6 teachers always remind us to get good grades to get a good career but when I'm doing my degree, people tend to tell me that it's ok to not get a first class degree . WTH !

Contradictions, man. Everyone of them has become hypocrites but undeniable, the more knowledgeable a person is, the more selfish he became so i rather not to be so wise to remind myself that I'm still living with courtesy :)

Same thing goes to relationship, when we first fall in love, we might think they're the one, tried being loyal, and hate those who snatch our love one away. As time goes, we must accept the fact that human changes in all aspects. Even if they're not exposed, they'll explore.

I tried reminding myself to be positive, love myself more than anyone else. I hope I can do it but still, I have you in my mind :)


biibuu ♥

I'm bruising.

I'm hurt not because we've broke up but I'm hurt because we know we love each other but we aren't together. I don't really hope it'll ended up like this but if .. there's no longer space for me in you. I hope you'll let me know.I want the truth no matter how awful it is.

I don't know what do you actually want but I've tell you what I want. I wanted to believe what you said is true and I did believe it but you make me doubtful because you can't make any decisions. I just hope you are doing it right.

Ask your heart. I let go my dignity to beg you to do so , i begged you but you tend to take things for granted. Never wanted to appreciate anything. Or maybe for you, it's not to appreciate. It's just nothing.

I don't want myself to be that pessimistic.I've lost my control and mood. All I did was just crying alone in the room, doesn't wanna go anywhere. Deleting the pictures of you and I in my mobile is tearing my heart into pieces.

I don't know how long it'll take to heal but I really can't help myself at this moment.

biibuu ♥

It rolls from my eyes externally

and it's bleeding internally ...

I get blessings but I did not cherished it. What I've done contradicts with what I want things to be. I became a hypocrite to myself or maybe to him as well.

I don't know if this is unfair or good for him .. I thought of being a narcissist but does it hurts ? Usually don't but what I'm doing .. YES .

SHIT HAPPENS and it's not as easy as flushing them down into the toilet.

Time takes it all .. and heals it.

biibuu ♥

Tree and Leaves

It takes decades for a tree to grow from a baby to matured. I'm a Science retard. I don't really know how long does it take from each process to another but in my mind, all i think was - the leaves in the world exceeded the population of the world.

I'm curious. Do trees has feelings ? They bear leaves like a mummy gave birth to a baby, just differ in terms of the number they produced. Will the tree ever feel sad when the leaves were blown away by wind or just fall in front of them and seeing them dry as time passes ?

Maybe they do .. or maybe they feel sad when they first encounter them but sooner or later, not anymore. Because it happen to frequent and the tree has get used to it. The feeling is just like you've been hurt so much until you don't feel the pain anymore.

But the tree has always been strong until the very last day of their life, either they're demolished or old enough in producing. Does it mean .. for human .. they'll still love although they've been hurt tons of times ? It's pretty silly but you know .. this is human nature.

In my perception, the most fragile thing in the world is HEART and the most hurtful one are FEELINGS - and it's also the most uncontrollable of all.

biibuu ♥

Thee is reluctant to let go and so do I

In my mind, things are still left tangled.

Human are born self-indulgent and narcissistic so you can't blame one for being selfish.

But i bet you can feel your despise towards them. Seriously, i has .. so much .

But have you ever know how does it feels ?

As secrets begin to reveal .. it strikes every part of my heart deep inside and it aches. It is not made from metal and it has no shield so it hurts. I've no one to talk to because i can't.

I'm welcoming a new restart, please don't let me down. If you would like to try something new, go ahead without any BURDENS. But if things still persist, I shall let go. I'm just a normal human with fragile heart, I'll feel tired and exhausted and I has the feeling of fed up and give up.

biibuu ♥

Out of my mind .

I knew i've been extremely crazy to be that emotional and overreacted but seriously, I can't accept what i saw . It's nuisance - an abomination . Please ... don't let it happen again or else i can be demented . I always said my heart is fragile , please handle with care :( It's pretty naive but I ABHOR HER !

biibuu ♥

I want nobody nobody but you !

Current obsession :



So cute :D

The english version goes like this ...

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you try to, to make me leave you
I know what youre thinking
Baby why arent you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me youre not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know its not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

[sunmi]
Why cant we just, just be like this cause
its you that i need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when Im with you, no one will ever do

Telling me youre not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
you know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I dont want no body, body
I dont want no body, body

Honey you know its you that I want, Its you that I need
Why cant you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
so tell me why cant it be
please let me live my life my way
why do you push me away
i dont want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you..

I'm procrastinating .

I wanted to blog bout how great my cruising holidays were but I'm just too lazy .. Gimme some time and I'll get it done :)

biibuu ♥

Results were released finally ( after months )

I knew it's sort of humiliating to compare this not-so-good results to those top students in my class but at least i got 3.00 for GPA :) which is a satisfying results to mum and me. I know i can do better but I've really put my effort in it.

biibuu ♥

Sometimes , I think it's ok ...

to be a lil naive ...

I decide to stay away from the crowd for a short - while to see things rigidly and hopefully things will be better :)

biibuu ♥

Oppsie .. !

I've never stop spending for the last 4 days !

I tried to stop myself but i just couldn't resist ! I kept seeing things that I wish they'll belong to me , they're so tempting and i brought them home ! Goshhhhh

I've really gone overboard, keep on buying things at unreasonable prices ( i don't really mean that it's not worth that price but i should not have bought too many pricey stuffs ) and I'm afraid me being brand conscious soon . SHITTO

Thank god, i haven't bring a Gucci home :p

Today shall be the last day for me to shop ( but i don't think so it's really the end ) and i finally bought stuff that I've been looking for - a bag for my new sem from ALDO :) * claps *

Time to revised my new wishlist !

biibuu ♥

I have a sin in me

My mind has been very very very sinful recently .

OH GOD !

Please help me ditch them away. That's not the way I want things to be and it ain't suppose to be so !


biibuu ♥

IF ONE DAY ...

I ever gone missing and you couldn't even make any call nor get any replies from me ...

Will you still look for me ?

biibuu ♥

Bomb it !

Taken this at The Gardens. Had a weird feeling when i first saw " Bom a lift " and in the end .. i realize it suppose to be BOMBA lift but the B has gone nowhere .

biibuu ♥

I wanna blog ...

but i don't know how to express my feeling now ..

biibuu ♥

My sweet 1028 aka the day i turned 21 !

Although it was not a grand one but it was a meaningful one. I remember as I woke up, opened my eyes,looked at my busuk beside me and heard him wishing me " Happy Birthday " . Guess what .. if he didn't greeted me that morning, I don't really remember it was 1028 except for if I've checked my mobile with bulks of messages and miscalls ( I slept before 12 the day before ;p )





He's so kissable ;p . He is the sweetest thing on earth for me now.

In fact, it was the first time in my life, I had my boyfriend with me throughout the day because ex used to celebrate my birthday either earlier or later than my actual date.

biibuu ♥

I have a sudden passion .

In fact, it's not sudden but it has been there since awhile .. it's just that it grew a lil stronger and fonder recently . I want to pursue my study overseas. That's what my passion is.

I wish to see a lil more things, experience more as studying overseas, life maybe tougher and i believe it will change who i am now but i don't see or get any support from my breadwinner .
* sighhhh *

Eventually .. it's just a thought . It'll not be realistic.


biibuu ♥

The feeling is so lost .

It's head cracking .. !

I want someone to share with but who's the right person i should spill ?

biibuu ♥