Tree and Leaves

It takes decades for a tree to grow from a baby to matured. I'm a Science retard. I don't really know how long does it take from each process to another but in my mind, all i think was - the leaves in the world exceeded the population of the world.

I'm curious. Do trees has feelings ? They bear leaves like a mummy gave birth to a baby, just differ in terms of the number they produced. Will the tree ever feel sad when the leaves were blown away by wind or just fall in front of them and seeing them dry as time passes ?

Maybe they do .. or maybe they feel sad when they first encounter them but sooner or later, not anymore. Because it happen to frequent and the tree has get used to it. The feeling is just like you've been hurt so much until you don't feel the pain anymore.

But the tree has always been strong until the very last day of their life, either they're demolished or old enough in producing. Does it mean .. for human .. they'll still love although they've been hurt tons of times ? It's pretty silly but you know .. this is human nature.

In my perception, the most fragile thing in the world is HEART and the most hurtful one are FEELINGS - and it's also the most uncontrollable of all.

biibuu ♥

Thee is reluctant to let go and so do I

In my mind, things are still left tangled.

Human are born self-indulgent and narcissistic so you can't blame one for being selfish.

But i bet you can feel your despise towards them. Seriously, i has .. so much .

But have you ever know how does it feels ?

As secrets begin to reveal .. it strikes every part of my heart deep inside and it aches. It is not made from metal and it has no shield so it hurts. I've no one to talk to because i can't.

I'm welcoming a new restart, please don't let me down. If you would like to try something new, go ahead without any BURDENS. But if things still persist, I shall let go. I'm just a normal human with fragile heart, I'll feel tired and exhausted and I has the feeling of fed up and give up.

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Out of my mind .

I knew i've been extremely crazy to be that emotional and overreacted but seriously, I can't accept what i saw . It's nuisance - an abomination . Please ... don't let it happen again or else i can be demented . I always said my heart is fragile , please handle with care :( It's pretty naive but I ABHOR HER !

biibuu ♥

I want nobody nobody but you !

Current obsession :



So cute :D

The english version goes like this ...

You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you try to, to make me leave you
I know what youre thinking
Baby why arent you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me youre not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know its not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

[sunmi]
Why cant we just, just be like this cause
its you that i need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when Im with you, no one will ever do

Telling me youre not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
you know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I dont want no body, body
I dont want no body, body

Honey you know its you that I want, Its you that I need
Why cant you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I dont want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
so tell me why cant it be
please let me live my life my way
why do you push me away
i dont want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you..

I'm procrastinating .

I wanted to blog bout how great my cruising holidays were but I'm just too lazy .. Gimme some time and I'll get it done :)

biibuu ♥

Results were released finally ( after months )

I knew it's sort of humiliating to compare this not-so-good results to those top students in my class but at least i got 3.00 for GPA :) which is a satisfying results to mum and me. I know i can do better but I've really put my effort in it.

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Sometimes , I think it's ok ...

to be a lil naive ...

I decide to stay away from the crowd for a short - while to see things rigidly and hopefully things will be better :)

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Oppsie .. !

I've never stop spending for the last 4 days !

I tried to stop myself but i just couldn't resist ! I kept seeing things that I wish they'll belong to me , they're so tempting and i brought them home ! Goshhhhh

I've really gone overboard, keep on buying things at unreasonable prices ( i don't really mean that it's not worth that price but i should not have bought too many pricey stuffs ) and I'm afraid me being brand conscious soon . SHITTO

Thank god, i haven't bring a Gucci home :p

Today shall be the last day for me to shop ( but i don't think so it's really the end ) and i finally bought stuff that I've been looking for - a bag for my new sem from ALDO :) * claps *

Time to revised my new wishlist !

biibuu ♥

I have a sin in me

My mind has been very very very sinful recently .

OH GOD !

Please help me ditch them away. That's not the way I want things to be and it ain't suppose to be so !


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IF ONE DAY ...

I ever gone missing and you couldn't even make any call nor get any replies from me ...

Will you still look for me ?

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Bomb it !

Taken this at The Gardens. Had a weird feeling when i first saw " Bom a lift " and in the end .. i realize it suppose to be BOMBA lift but the B has gone nowhere .

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I wanna blog ...

but i don't know how to express my feeling now ..

biibuu ♥

My sweet 1028 aka the day i turned 21 !

Although it was not a grand one but it was a meaningful one. I remember as I woke up, opened my eyes,looked at my busuk beside me and heard him wishing me " Happy Birthday " . Guess what .. if he didn't greeted me that morning, I don't really remember it was 1028 except for if I've checked my mobile with bulks of messages and miscalls ( I slept before 12 the day before ;p )





He's so kissable ;p . He is the sweetest thing on earth for me now.

In fact, it was the first time in my life, I had my boyfriend with me throughout the day because ex used to celebrate my birthday either earlier or later than my actual date.

biibuu ♥

I have a sudden passion .

In fact, it's not sudden but it has been there since awhile .. it's just that it grew a lil stronger and fonder recently . I want to pursue my study overseas. That's what my passion is.

I wish to see a lil more things, experience more as studying overseas, life maybe tougher and i believe it will change who i am now but i don't see or get any support from my breadwinner .
* sighhhh *

Eventually .. it's just a thought . It'll not be realistic.


biibuu ♥

The feeling is so lost .

It's head cracking .. !

I want someone to share with but who's the right person i should spill ?

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Daddy, you can let go ...

Saw this from Cyprian's facebook , a heart-rending one

I would like to dedicate this to my mum ;) but mummy, I won't let you go. Love you

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Trust and Faith

I've tried learning to have trust and faith on him but no matter how much i remind myself i should do it .. I just can't help . Why ?

It's so true that Scorpions used to think too much .. think overboard and they're usually born to .. what a sickening characteristics .. duhhh

Anyway, I'm still trying my best way out to not torture him. Wish me luck people ;)

biibuu ♥

Budget planning

I wanna make a budget plan . I wanna save $$$ now ( or earn a lil ) to spend in the futureeeeeeeee !

WOW . i'm so freaking awake when i think of shopping ;D

Now let's see how shall i start my plan .. where shall i save more and where can i earn?

Maybe eat ? Yahh .. that's true. I love to eat - not the main dishes but those side dishes that's why i love ordering those main stuffs like mee and rice but with lotsa side dishes like fishcakes, fried stuffs. From tomorrow onwards .. i shall cut down all those stuffs .

Secondly, try not to order drinks during makan or if i wanted to, look for someone to pay .. like .. MUMMY and UNCLE . Heh ~

Thirdly, cook at home. But it's not that money saving in fact, it's sort of time consuming but it's definitely healthier !

Forth , cut down magazines ? Nahhhhhh .. Just around 10 bucks a month , make not much difference at all ..

What about ... top ups ? No , I hardly top up. My maxis number is postpaid, mum pays for it . Digi .. ? Hmmm . I think it's been awhile since i last top up. And I'm not going to top up for my uncle anymore. I'm just too decent ! Not worth it.

What else ? Tea session with girlfriends are usually unavoidable and we love to visit those air-conditioned cafe. Duhhhh .. once again . CUT DOWN this kind of expenses but places without air-cond ? Sounds like a nono . Well .. put this under consideration or order sky juice for the next time ? Weeee .. then why not bringing a bottle of water from home ? =.=" If i could do this, my plan will succeed for SURE but i knew it'll never.

How to earn money ? Sell my stuffs ? But there's no thingy like flea market where we can sell our second hand stuffs in sban neither nilai ? Or should i say, i don't know any? Yes .. i think of something to sell , but not the right timing yet. My textbooks - next year =.="

Part time job ? I'm lazy for one but if uncle is going to hire me, and that's a yes yes ! YES .. TALK TO HIM !

WHAT ELSEEEEEEEEE ? can't think of any right now. that's all . toodles ;)

biibuu ♥

I don't know what it was like ..

but it was something like ais batu campur .. all mixed up and it doesn't feel nice at all . Sometimes, i feel like throwing out everything but in fact i don't. Shake me till I'm awake please .

biibuu ♥

Never take things for granted

because you'll never know things may turn the other way round especially if it's the ugly part .

biibuu ♥