Words for you

Until this very moment, I can still feel extremely creep out with what you've done. It may be a small matter to you but to me, it really bothers me a lot. Initially, I thought you were back for good, but in less than 2 weeks, you left without bidding.
I felt dim-witted, thought that text was a joke, hoping when I ‘m home, I’ll still see you around. When I step in the house, I saw your shoes, smiling to myself thinking, “This fella is trying to be funny” but as I step in further, I knew you were really gone.

You’ll never know how it feels and bet you’ll never wanna try. It’s too pricky and I just broke down. I’ve forgotten .. that’s you. You were the one who like to leave things undone and incomplete. That’s you. I’ve tried so hard helping us clarifying stuffs between us but you still can’t see that I’m putting effort or maybe you did, but you did not wanna cooperate. Guess that was the answer that you gave me from the very first and what you said is true, i'm always lebih.

Maybe we’ve used to look for each other, even I’ve that habit of telling you every single things even if it’s something minor but choosing not to talk to each other for some times, is to let both of us in adapting life without each other. Guess we don't need each other that really much or I was the one who need you and I knew you might feel annoyed. I’m letting you down to free you.

It will be a better way for you and me and guess the best would be me. I don’t wanna feel sad seeing you not getting rid of your drastic habits. I don’t want myself to be upset in seeing you screwing up your own life.

Friends are who we are now. I knew you’ll respect whatever my decision would be because you’ve no intentions to bring us back. After so long, it was really my problem for not knowing what you really want and now, I got the answer. From now on, I shall say, I’m respecting you as well.

Thank you for being so tolerating. I knew it's not easy to handle me. Guess looking for a new gf will not be an issue to you but remember to look for someone who's not a control freak or else it'll be a disaster to you like what i did to you.

Live well, take care and all the best.


biibuu ♥

Here comes 1st of July.

Should be doing a review for the past half year of 2010.

Let's see .. what have i done so far ? hmmm :/ Guess there's nothing special since I did not do any contributions :9

Will be traveling to Singapore for the forth time this year and this time is, the main purpose is to attend Aunty Alice's daughter's engagement. Not sure if I'll have time to do some shopping but guess my folks will be going to Sentosa again ...

Why everything must come in one ? Test on next Monday and Tuesday, interviews and o night comes on the same day . How should i cope with them ? BLESS ME .

The procrastinate queen is back. Thank god there's no much asses to be done but seems like I did not keep my own promises to improve my grades ! I've been skipping classes and guess there'll be warning letters coming to me soon. Hope mum has not found out yet until I'm home. Keep my fingers crossed, shall do revision after next week.

Oh yeah .. should I do internship or postponed it after I've finished my syllabus ? goshhh .. it's a dilemma. Someone, please advice.

biibuu ♥

Where's the courtesy ?

Heard an accident happens in front of my place, rushed out and saw a motorcyclist being knock down by a Citra. Guess the Citra driver is afraid and he fled after 10 seconds leaving the poor motorcyclist on the spot.

Would like to say, hey people, where's your courtesy ? How can you be that irresponsible for mistakes you've done. You've never think how bad the consequences could be when you abandon your responsibilities and you might be punished with something that is even worse.

Have a " good " life, people. You won't be able to go any further because there will be witness who remembers your car number.

biibuu♥

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401 pending requests. Don't ask me why.


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I apology

i realized i've changed. i do not hope this to happens but i started to despise.

i do not wanna be that bias but please don't try to put the educated and non-educated together. i don't mean couples, but it's the point of view and things they do including things they know. they're different.

i don't like to be compared with the non-educated. besides having the same gender and age, we're still different because everyone is born unique. i will respect you not with the wealth you have but for the knowledge you have and only listen to the rights.

i had this kind of feelings when something really bad happens to me and it grows fonder each day. can you see the changes in me? judge me. i'll still live my way and you can even hate me for that, because that's me, i ain't gonna change for you but would be glad if you stay further.


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Please stop twisting

Gastric strikes me and it's like twisting and turning inside which makes me don't feel well and comfy. Guess i need to consult the doctor asap :(

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I'm so demanding !

Gawddddddd, why on earth am I demanding for so many stuffs?

My life is perfect but due to the greed in me, I'm demanding for more and more. Just realize I’ve too many stuffs in my wishlist now but I’ve no enough ability to own every one of them and I felt so languish for not having them :(


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Hate mama's boy

That fella seriously pissed me off .. the way he talk, the things he'd done. ewwwww

He's just too naive even if he's older than i do. Well, must be because of his mummy spoil him too much and now he's like that.

I'm regret of making such decision, seriously do and promise there'll be no next time after this sem. Get a life, lil boy.

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People always say

treat others the way you wanna be treated and people will treat you the way you wanted to ...

But somehow, this isn't true because not everyone wanna be treated the way you wanted to be treated.

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Instead of blaming why people don't understand ... I guess I should ask why I don't understand as well.

In fact, it's not that I don't wanna empathize but that person don't allow me to put myself into their shoes .. so .. what should I do ?

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It's sort of stupid

after realizing what's eventually better.

WONDERING HOW STUPID I AM .. damn ..

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papaya milk

i miss papaya milk :(

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Life's too short to wake up in the morning for regrets

Love people who treat you right,
Pray for those who don't.

Life is 10% on how you make it and 90% on how you take it.

biibuu ♥

Need you now ( Lady Antebellum )

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

I'll be gaining weight

because i found this in my refrigerator ..

biibuu ♥

I'm missing someone

He used to love me so much before ... but where is him now ?

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I just do what I want

Life is beautiful *

* Terms and conditions apply !

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Contradiction

I'm doing things that I dislike to do but I'm still doing it ... I felt a lil stressful and annoyed. My heartaches like shit . I doesn't wanna sit beside you accompanying you doing things I dislike you to do but I followed you here to see you doing it.

I can never understand. Is it the only way that can make you happy ? When am I going to see changes in you ? I guess it might never happen until the last day I ever talk to you ... but I'm still hoping miracle does happens. Love

biibuu ♥

I don't know

I don't know .. don't feel like knowing .. don't wanna know .. hate to know ..

It's all about the abhorrence, despise, hatred .

I've got myself too much to doubt. It's a torture. Everything was a mistake.

Shall not bother, shall not fcking care.

FULLSTOP. Toddles !

biibuu ♥

Guys

Looking back on my Facebook’s profile and walls, I’ve stated there, I’m a female, my profile pic shows that I have long straight hair, I wear dresses and skirts and in fact I am a LADY but ironically I’m a guy good friend to my good guy friends.

I eventually realized that I’m too comfy with being a “guy “ with them and I guess they’re happy being around me too without any needs to not be themselves. You know there are some guys that used to be attention seeker among girls. Those are the sickening ones. They’ll boast on how great they are which makes them pissed me off.

Pros - although they treated me as guy, we’re buddies and we’ll not break up, divorce plus I got pampered and protected like a girl among them. They even teach me or let me know what most of the guys think and do and tell me to be more alert with guys. Boyfriends usually don’t do this kind of stuffs kayyyy . They’ll only show you the girlfriends, the best in him. Same like girlfriends did that to their boyfriends too but me, sorry, I’m not good in acting ;)

Cons –always got misunderstand by people I’ve different boyfriends. Maybe I get too well along with few of my buddies and sometimes we used to come out only in 2 or sometimes we took pics in an extraordinary pose, people might think I’ve different partners. DAMN. I’m loyal kayyyy !

Anyway, I’ll ignore what other people say bout me but I do care people that means to me misunderstands me. I rather they argue with me to ask for clarification other than sitting there quietly, keeping stuffs in their mind not telling me and hatred grows for the wrong thing. I ain’t emphasizing on anyone but to everyone, and you know you are not excluded.


biibuu ♥