I'm missing someone

He used to love me so much before ... but where is him now ?

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I just do what I want

Life is beautiful *

* Terms and conditions apply !

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Contradiction

I'm doing things that I dislike to do but I'm still doing it ... I felt a lil stressful and annoyed. My heartaches like shit . I doesn't wanna sit beside you accompanying you doing things I dislike you to do but I followed you here to see you doing it.

I can never understand. Is it the only way that can make you happy ? When am I going to see changes in you ? I guess it might never happen until the last day I ever talk to you ... but I'm still hoping miracle does happens. Love

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I don't know

I don't know .. don't feel like knowing .. don't wanna know .. hate to know ..

It's all about the abhorrence, despise, hatred .

I've got myself too much to doubt. It's a torture. Everything was a mistake.

Shall not bother, shall not fcking care.

FULLSTOP. Toddles !

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Guys

Looking back on my Facebook’s profile and walls, I’ve stated there, I’m a female, my profile pic shows that I have long straight hair, I wear dresses and skirts and in fact I am a LADY but ironically I’m a guy good friend to my good guy friends.

I eventually realized that I’m too comfy with being a “guy “ with them and I guess they’re happy being around me too without any needs to not be themselves. You know there are some guys that used to be attention seeker among girls. Those are the sickening ones. They’ll boast on how great they are which makes them pissed me off.

Pros - although they treated me as guy, we’re buddies and we’ll not break up, divorce plus I got pampered and protected like a girl among them. They even teach me or let me know what most of the guys think and do and tell me to be more alert with guys. Boyfriends usually don’t do this kind of stuffs kayyyy . They’ll only show you the girlfriends, the best in him. Same like girlfriends did that to their boyfriends too but me, sorry, I’m not good in acting ;)

Cons –always got misunderstand by people I’ve different boyfriends. Maybe I get too well along with few of my buddies and sometimes we used to come out only in 2 or sometimes we took pics in an extraordinary pose, people might think I’ve different partners. DAMN. I’m loyal kayyyy !

Anyway, I’ll ignore what other people say bout me but I do care people that means to me misunderstands me. I rather they argue with me to ask for clarification other than sitting there quietly, keeping stuffs in their mind not telling me and hatred grows for the wrong thing. I ain’t emphasizing on anyone but to everyone, and you know you are not excluded.


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The new sem's revolution.

And so I'm done with my enrollment. Let's see what's up for next semester.
3 core subjects and 1 soft skill. My timetable is pretty blank and like what Mr.Mani said, I’ll be relax as usual ;)

But what annoys me the most is LAW subject. Although it's just the foundation of business law but I feel slightly terrified because my coursemates used to grumble and assert that it’s a killer subject. DAMN. I hope it’s not for me.

Back to the main issue, this sem will not be as stressful as the previous sem so what I should do is get asses done well, mid term doing good and study hard for only 2 subjects so I shall not fail any papers this sem and on top of that, shall got really good grades for 3 papers. Bless me. I shall help myself and get my CGPA improved.

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I didn't want to but I did it in the end

Felt a lil emo just now and it don't really feels good. It was kinda pricky and it strikes my heart.

I knew it's just left a little ... and i shall cherish. Wish that I'm not doing the wrong thing.

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Guess i need some time for rehabilitation.

I've gone overboard last night. It was Johnson's birthday, but seems like it's mine more than his because everyone came to me and said " DRINK DRINK , HALF HALF , BOTTOM'S UP ! " and the liquor were all served KNEADLY without mixer. You guys treat me as if I'm damn good in drinking.Oh pleaseeeeeee ,I told you guys from the very first, I'm a lousy drinker. Please don't make fun of me.


I need to move around or else sitting there makes me feel too nauseous. I don't really remember what happened in the few hours. All I remember was few guys spoken to me,I've been to the dance floor for a few times dragging anonymous girls to the dance floor, danced with them on top of the stage and get to knew some, exchanged our numbers and emails as well and even tried to puke but the toilet is too ... eww ... disgusting, makes me don't feel like puking !


Heard a bad news of my bra, he's quite pity but he tried being optimistic. I trusted him to be one.


Everyone has a sad story, but tried making it as a memorable one, in a positive way for of course.

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Feeling lazy to ...

* iron

* pack

* drive

* watch

* investigate

* argue

* care

* entertain

* call

* talk

* charge

* see

* move

* realize

* type

- THE END -

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Manchester United !

Just found out PBB is offering Manchester United's debit and credit card !

Gawddddddddddd ... I can't help but apply for one IMMEDIATELY but I need to wait for at least 2 weeks to get it. ewww ~

I can't wait to swipe it during my shopping days ... ! It'll be definitely cool and chio ! Wheeeeeeeeeee !

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Last paper !

Oh yeahhhhh , it's the last paper tomorrow but I'mma not in the mood of studying. Might be staying up till tomorrow until the exam starts. Had a lil alcohol just now, makes me feel like sleeping but I knew, when i fall on my bed, I'll never wanna get up :9

VENI VIDI VICI !

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Gimme some motivation please ...

I need to study study study lahhhhhhhh !

Why the hell am I not in the mood of studying . God damn it !

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Even if you've won

It's a " so what !?! " to me ...

You can feel glad and happy for those that you've won .. but who's going to mourn for those you've lost ? You feel nothing because you think it's worth losing because all you got back in return is your satisfaction.

But have you ever think that people who loves you never want you to get involve in all this? Do you know every time when you promise not to do it but in the end, you still broke your own promise, you'll break people's heart into pieces. STOP YOUR NARCISSISM please !

It's none of my business but I do feel so sorry for you. You're not guilty for what you've done. Trust me, if you are not going to dump all those bad habits away, you'll not go any further in your life. I'm not cursing you, but how much can you lose out of your whole life?

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Done with those shitty asses !

All done .. time to study for my finals .

Well, feel glad to see that my course work's results is better than what I've expected. Felt slightly relieved because I aimed just to pass those papers but I should actually study more to get better grades but me, being the well-known procrastinate queen, can't help but procrastinating. DAMNIIT !

Shall get myself a gift after finals, a new hairdo perhaps :) Toddles !

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Almost done (n_n)~*

So glad to see my asses coming to the end ... phew .. They're sort of torturing .. I'm left with Ethics individual ass and Moral group's ass and I'm all done :)

But when there's the end of something, it's actually a beginning for something else .. That's my final . I shall catch up with my studies by next week once i finalize my last ass.

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Assignments

Of all shits, you're the most arduous , troublesome , tiresome and tedious. Why must all students go through all this ? God, I'm running out of time and I need 48 hours a day ! Can anyone grant this wish for me ... for only a week perhaps ?

Bless me !

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Growing up

As we're growing up, we're exposed to more and more stuffs and things that would be awkward when we were young. The perception towards them just changed according to our age.

It's just like .. when i was a kid, i learn that kids should be obedient and never tell lies but parents did that to us ! When I'm in primary school, I used to be a Top 5 student and think that I'll be better in future but in the end, I end up being the top 5 from the back in the second class of my Form 1. What a shame :p

Before i step in college, my form 6 teachers always remind us to get good grades to get a good career but when I'm doing my degree, people tend to tell me that it's ok to not get a first class degree . WTH !

Contradictions, man. Everyone of them has become hypocrites but undeniable, the more knowledgeable a person is, the more selfish he became so i rather not to be so wise to remind myself that I'm still living with courtesy :)

Same thing goes to relationship, when we first fall in love, we might think they're the one, tried being loyal, and hate those who snatch our love one away. As time goes, we must accept the fact that human changes in all aspects. Even if they're not exposed, they'll explore.

I tried reminding myself to be positive, love myself more than anyone else. I hope I can do it but still, I have you in my mind :)


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I'm bruising.

I'm hurt not because we've broke up but I'm hurt because we know we love each other but we aren't together. I don't really hope it'll ended up like this but if .. there's no longer space for me in you. I hope you'll let me know.I want the truth no matter how awful it is.

I don't know what do you actually want but I've tell you what I want. I wanted to believe what you said is true and I did believe it but you make me doubtful because you can't make any decisions. I just hope you are doing it right.

Ask your heart. I let go my dignity to beg you to do so , i begged you but you tend to take things for granted. Never wanted to appreciate anything. Or maybe for you, it's not to appreciate. It's just nothing.

I don't want myself to be that pessimistic.I've lost my control and mood. All I did was just crying alone in the room, doesn't wanna go anywhere. Deleting the pictures of you and I in my mobile is tearing my heart into pieces.

I don't know how long it'll take to heal but I really can't help myself at this moment.

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It rolls from my eyes externally

and it's bleeding internally ...

I get blessings but I did not cherished it. What I've done contradicts with what I want things to be. I became a hypocrite to myself or maybe to him as well.

I don't know if this is unfair or good for him .. I thought of being a narcissist but does it hurts ? Usually don't but what I'm doing .. YES .

SHIT HAPPENS and it's not as easy as flushing them down into the toilet.

Time takes it all .. and heals it.

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Tree and Leaves

It takes decades for a tree to grow from a baby to matured. I'm a Science retard. I don't really know how long does it take from each process to another but in my mind, all i think was - the leaves in the world exceeded the population of the world.

I'm curious. Do trees has feelings ? They bear leaves like a mummy gave birth to a baby, just differ in terms of the number they produced. Will the tree ever feel sad when the leaves were blown away by wind or just fall in front of them and seeing them dry as time passes ?

Maybe they do .. or maybe they feel sad when they first encounter them but sooner or later, not anymore. Because it happen to frequent and the tree has get used to it. The feeling is just like you've been hurt so much until you don't feel the pain anymore.

But the tree has always been strong until the very last day of their life, either they're demolished or old enough in producing. Does it mean .. for human .. they'll still love although they've been hurt tons of times ? It's pretty silly but you know .. this is human nature.

In my perception, the most fragile thing in the world is HEART and the most hurtful one are FEELINGS - and it's also the most uncontrollable of all.

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