Oh yeahhhhh , it's the last paper tomorrow but I'mma not in the mood of studying. Might be staying up till tomorrow until the exam starts. Had a lil alcohol just now, makes me feel like sleeping but I knew, when i fall on my bed, I'll never wanna get up :9
You can feel glad and happy for those that you've won .. but who's going to mourn for those you've lost ? You feel nothing because you think it's worth losing because all you got back in return is your satisfaction.
But have you ever think that people who loves you never want you to get involve in all this? Do you know every time when you promise not to do it but in the end, you still broke your own promise, you'll break people's heart into pieces. STOP YOUR NARCISSISM please !
It's none of my business but I do feel so sorry for you. You're not guilty for what you've done. Trust me, if you are not going to dump all those bad habits away, you'll not go any further in your life. I'm not cursing you, but how much can you lose out of your whole life?
Well, feel glad to see that my course work's results is better than what I've expected. Felt slightly relieved because I aimed just to pass those papers but I should actually study more to get better grades but me, being the well-known procrastinate queen, can't help but procrastinating. DAMNIIT !
Shall get myself a gift after finals, a new hairdo perhaps :) Toddles ! biibuu ♥
So glad to see my asses coming to the end ... phew .. They're sort of torturing .. I'm left with Ethics individual ass and Moral group's ass and I'm all done :)
But when there's the end of something, it's actually a beginning for something else .. That's my final . I shall catch up with my studies by next week once i finalize my last ass.
Of all shits, you're the most arduous , troublesome , tiresome and tedious. Why must all students go through all this ? God, I'm running out of time and I need 48 hours a day ! Can anyone grant this wish for me ... for only a week perhaps ?
As we're growing up, we're exposed to more and more stuffs and things that would be awkward when we were young. The perception towards them just changed according to our age.
It's just like .. when i was a kid, i learn that kids should be obedient and never tell lies but parents did that to us ! When I'm in primary school, I used to be a Top 5 student and think that I'll be better in future but in the end, I end up being the top 5 from the back in the second class of my Form 1. What a shame :p
Before i step in college, my form 6 teachers always remind us to get good grades to get a good career but when I'm doing my degree, people tend to tell me that it's ok to not get a first class degree . WTH !
Contradictions, man. Everyone of them has become hypocrites but undeniable, the more knowledgeable a person is, the more selfish he became so i rather not to be so wise to remind myself that I'm still living with courtesy :)
Same thing goes to relationship, when we first fall in love, we might think they're the one, tried being loyal, and hate those who snatch our love one away. As time goes, we must accept the fact that human changes in all aspects. Even if they're not exposed, they'll explore.
I tried reminding myself to be positive, love myself more than anyone else. I hope I can do it but still, I have you in my mind :)
I'm hurt not because we've broke up but I'm hurt because we know we love each other but we aren't together. I don't really hope it'll ended up like this but if .. there's no longer space for me in you. I hope you'll let me know.I want the truth no matter how awful it is.
I don't know what do you actually want but I've tell you what I want. I wanted to believe what you said is true and I did believe it but you make me doubtful because you can't make any decisions. I just hope you are doing it right.
Ask your heart. I let go my dignity to beg you to do so , i begged you but you tend to take things for granted. Never wanted to appreciate anything. Or maybe for you, it's not to appreciate. It's just nothing.
I don't want myself to be that pessimistic.I've lost my control and mood. All I did was just crying alone in the room, doesn't wanna go anywhere. Deleting the pictures of you and I in my mobile is tearing my heart into pieces.
I don't know how long it'll take to heal but I really can't help myself at this moment.
I get blessings but I did not cherished it. What I've done contradicts with what I want things to be. I became a hypocrite to myself or maybe to him as well.
I don't know if this is unfair or good for him .. I thought of being a narcissist but does it hurts ? Usually don't but what I'm doing .. YES .
SHIT HAPPENS and it's not as easy as flushing them down into the toilet.
It takes decades for a tree to grow from a baby to matured. I'm a Science retard. I don't really know how long does it take from each process to another but in my mind, all i think was - the leaves in the world exceeded the population of the world.
I'm curious. Do trees has feelings ? They bear leaves like a mummy gave birth to a baby, just differ in terms of the number they produced. Will the tree ever feel sad when the leaves were blown away by wind or just fall in front of them and seeing them dry as time passes ?
Maybe they do .. or maybe they feel sad when they first encounter them but sooner or later, not anymore. Because it happen to frequent and the tree has get used to it. The feeling is just like you've been hurt so much until you don't feel the pain anymore.
But the tree has always been strong until the very last day of their life, either they're demolished or old enough in producing. Does it mean .. for human .. they'll still love although they've been hurt tons of times ? It's pretty silly but you know .. this is human nature.
In my perception, the most fragile thing in the world is HEART and the most hurtful one are FEELINGS - and it's also the most uncontrollable of all.
Human are born self-indulgent and narcissistic so you can't blame one for being selfish.
But i bet you can feel your despise towards them. Seriously, i has .. so much .
But have you ever know how does it feels ?
As secrets begin to reveal .. it strikes every part of my heart deep inside and it aches. It is not made from metal and it has no shield so it hurts. I've no one to talk to because i can't.
I'm welcoming a new restart, please don't let me down. If you would like to try something new, go ahead without any BURDENS. But if things still persist, I shall let go. I'm just a normal human with fragile heart, I'll feel tired and exhausted and I has the feeling of fed up and give up.
I knew i've been extremely crazy to be that emotional and overreacted but seriously, I can't accept what i saw . It's nuisance - an abomination . Please ... don't let it happen again or else i can be demented . I always said my heart is fragile , please handle with care :( It's pretty naive but I ABHOR HER !
You Know I still Love You Baby. And it will never change. (Saranghae)
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
Why are you try to, to make me leave you I know what youre thinking Baby why arent you listening How can I just Just love someone else and Forget you completely When I know you still love me
Telling me youre not good enough My life with you is just too tough You know its not right so Just stop and come back boy How can this be When we were meant to be
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
[sunmi] Why cant we just, just be like this cause its you that i need and nothing else until the end Who else can ever make me feel the way I I feel when Im with you, no one will ever do
Telling me youre not good enough My life with you is just too tough You know me enough so you know what I need boy Right next to you is where I need to be.
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I dont want no body, body I dont want no body, body
Honey you know its you that I want, Its you that I need Why cant you see~
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You How can I be with another, I dont want any other I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free Nothing else matters other than you and me so tell me why cant it be please let me live my life my way why do you push me away i dont want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you..
I knew it's sort of humiliating to compare this not-so-good results to those top students in my class but at least i got 3.00 for GPA :) which is a satisfying results to mum and me. I know i can do better but I've really put my effort in it.
I tried to stop myself but i just couldn't resist ! I kept seeing things that I wish they'll belong to me , they're so tempting and i brought them home ! Goshhhhh
I've really gone overboard, keep on buying things at unreasonable prices ( i don't really mean that it's not worth that price but i should not have bought too many pricey stuffs ) and I'm afraid me being brand conscious soon . SHITTO
Thank god, i haven't bring a Gucci home :p
Today shall be the last day for me to shop ( but i don't think so it's really the end ) and i finally bought stuff that I've been looking for - a bag for my new sem from ALDO :) * claps *
Escada S YSL's Babydoll Samsung Galaxy S School bag RED bikini Reetone sneakers Xixili Lingerie Red wallet Red Longchamp Clinique skincare RED comforter set Digital IXUS 100 IS Lancome Night Repair La Senza Lingerie
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